Ajan Kloss- Tuesday after all that

[thatwaslucky]

Rey didn't even know how long it had been since this all started now. Though she was filthy and bloody- where had that even come from?- Ben had healed her and nothing hurt physically. She wasn't tired from lack of sleep and constant stress anymore. There wasn't even adrenaline that had to wear off. Emotionally though, she felt exhausted.

She had asked for a few minutes to clean up, and after a shower and a change of clothes she had Anakin meet her in her quarters on the Falcon. They needed to have a very important talk, and this was the most private place she had.


[im done spamming you! For the Master.]

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[thatwaslucky]

"Yes," she said simply. It didn't feel strange to say at all.

[sith_happened]

Anakin gave her a small but sincere smile. "I'm glad to hear it."

[thatwaslucky]

"I've had all of them literally supporting me. It'd be disrespectful to say I wasn't," she said.

She also knew she'd earned it. But she'd earned it by killing her grandfather, and that part was going to take her a bit.

[sith_happened]

Anakin smiled. "You could finally hear them?" he asked.

[thatwaslucky]

Rey nodded. "It was like the Emperor took everything out of me. All I could do was watch the battle. I couldn't even move. And that's when I could finally hear them. It's the only reason I could face him down at all."

[sith_happened]

"I'm glad they could help you," Anakin said, missing them acutely right now.

[thatwaslucky]

"Me too," she said. "My version of you was one of them."

[sith_happened]

Anakin looked touched. "Really? In this voice?"

Not something super deep?

[thatwaslucky]

"Exactly like you," she said.

[sith_happened]

He would not be able to explain why that had brought tears back to his eyes, but it had. "Oh," he said in a small, pleased voice. "Good."

[thatwaslucky]

She could make some guesses. "You were all there for me."

Which was touching to her too, to spend most of her life alone because of Palpatine and finding out that she really, really wasn't.

[sith_happened]

Anakin smiled. "You were never alone," he said. "That's a strength the Jedi have that the Sith never will."

[thatwaslucky]

"There's something to be said about welcoming everyone who's come before versus being someone who kills your own master for more power," she said, just a touch dryly. She couldn't manage full dryly yet.

[sith_happened]

"Strange, isn't it?" he agreed.

[thatwaslucky]

"I couldn't have been like him," she said, which was also part realization of the question she'd been freaking out about for a year now. She just... she couldn't be like him.

[sith_happened]

"You're nothing like him," Anakin said vehemently. "Ever."

[thatwaslucky]

"I worried," she admitted.

[sith_happened]

Anakin reached out to squeeze her hand. "He was a reason to worry."

[thatwaslucky]

She squeezed it back. "I know I have a temper. And I kept having these visions, of me on a Sith throne, and if I knew how to do all these things because Kylo Ren unlocked it in me then what do I know that I shouldn't?" she said. "And then I found out about Palpatine, and this whole mission I've felt like I was spiraling out of control and..."

She was very much not out of control. But she'd felt it.

[sith_happened]

Anakin kept holding on. "And you wondered how much of it was in your blood?"

[thatwaslucky]

"He did, too," she confirmed. "I just... I always wondered if he was why."

[sith_happened]

"I don't think it controls as much of our lives as we'd wish," Anakin said.

[thatwaslucky]

"I much prefer fully making my own choices," she said.

[sith_happened]

Anakin nodded. "I agree."

[thatwaslucky]

"This was a terrible way to learn these lessons," Rey said.