MCA #1 to MCA #2- Tuesday morning

[thatwaslucky]

The move had been a success. There were no problems, they weren't tracked, Ajan Kloss was safe... it was the best outcome she could have hoped for. At the same time, she was still expecting something, and she didn't know what, which had left just a tiny piece of herself on edge even when she'd been in her new favorite place in the galaxy. But she was trying to put it out of her mind without burying it, and while she was sitting in her nook translating one of the texts in the silence of her apartment, suddenly the silence even fell away.

"Where are you?"

Rey's very first reaction was to lean down to set the book on the floor, so he wouldn't see it. "You know I won't tell you that."

She could shut him out right now. She'd done it before. But she wanted to know what he had to say.

"I felt you in that vision on Anoat," said Kylo Ren.

That was something she had suspected, but hadn't given voice to yet. "Is that what that was."

"Don't play dumb, we both know you're not." There'd been a tension there, when he'd tried to contact her before, but this was anger. Not the explosive kind, and one she'd seen before, but it was there, and not knowing how to place it made Rey more uneasy than anything else.

"I had a vision. I didn't know what it meant," she said.

"You're lying."

"I'm not."

"I can tell you're hiding things from me." And it clicked when she heard that tone why his emotions were keeping her on edge: because for the first time the anger wasn't directed inward, it was directed at her.

"Of course I'm hiding things from you," she snapped. "But not this. What did you do to Anoat?"

"Nothing."

"Nothing."

"There's nothing on Anoat," he said, an accusation. "Was this somewhere you were supposed to go, and you changed course?"

It wasn't so much that she could feel him trying to rifle through her brain as much as she could tell her was trying to try to rifle through her brain, and she slammed those defenses shut.

"I don't want you in my head," Rey told him firmly.

"It wasn't long ago you invited me in when it was convenient for you," Kylo sneered.

Why did she suddenly feel like she'd been slapped? Had she? She had, but it wasn't... it wasn't like that.

And she was really angry that she was questioning the most vulnerable moment in her life all of a sudden.

"That isn't worse than forcing your way in," Rey snapped, and dropped the barriers. Well. Some of the barriers. "You want to know if I'm telling the truth? Fine. Look."

While this whole conversation was sort of in her head, she now got to experience what it was like for him to be inside her head while kind of inside her head, and she had no idea how she managed to recoil at it. This was a test for herself and she knew it. She and Anakin had been practicing this and for as much as she hated it, she could show Kylo Ren what she knew about those weird dreams she'd woken up to, and that vision, and what she saw of it. She really hadn't known what it was at the time, and she just left out the part where she made a leap that turned out to be correct.

And he saw that.

"I thought so," Rey said, and slammed her mind shut, and shut him out.

She sat there, not sure what to do. It was always hard to just go back to doing something normal after something like this, and she really was angry, and second guessing herself, and she was just supposed to go about her day?

Maybe she sat there for a minute, maybe it was thirty, she really didn't know. But when she couldn't take it anymore she got up and went across the hall, knocking at the door.


[One entire half of that Skype conversation is NFB! For the pirate bf.]

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[long_memory]

Really only one person knocked on Silver's door so he wasn't surprised when he opened it and saw Rey there. However, it didn't take more than a few seconds to tell that there was something off about her.

"What's wrong?"

[thatwaslucky]

Rey paused, because that was actually a big question, but at least it all had one simple cause.

"I just talked to Kylo Ren," she said.

[long_memory]

Silver frowned, moving out of the way so Rey could come in. "What did he want?"

[thatwaslucky]

"To know where I am," she said, stepping inside. "He went to Anoat."

So their timing had been luckier than they'd maybe thought.

[long_memory]

"How did he know you were there?" he asked. "Just from being in your head?"

[thatwaslucky]

"We seem to have shared the vision I had that told me what was going to happen," she said, and was she a little concerned that she'd led him there even when she knew better? "We were just faster."

[long_memory]

Well that just made Silver frown more. "So he saw this vision, went to Anoat and after he didn't find anybody there he just checked in to see where you were? Like you would actually tell him?"

[thatwaslucky]

"Or he thought he'd see it in me," Rey said. "He wanted inside my head."

[long_memory]

This was one of those times where Silver wanted to tap into his inner Flint and do something violent and ill-advised, but he was so out of his depth when it came to all of this that he didn't even know how to proceed. So instead he tried to tamp down the urge.

"Are you okay?" he asked, reaching for her hand. It seemed like that was all he could do in this situation, really.

[thatwaslucky]

"Yeah," she said, letting him take her hand to squeeze his. "I can keep him from seeing what I don't want him to."

Honestly, that at least felt great.

The rest sucked.

[long_memory]

Silver didn't necessarily believe that. Not about her ability to block him from seeing certain things, but about being okay.

He reached up to cup her cheek with his other hand. "What can I do?"

[thatwaslucky]

"You're doing it," Rey said, turning her head just enough to kiss his palm. "I couldn't just sit with this."

[long_memory]

"I wish I could do more," he admitted.

[thatwaslucky]

"You're good," she assured him, letting go of his hand to slip her arms around him. "There's nothing that can be done, really. Just me working harder to keep him out entirely. And then maybe this isn't a problem again for a long time."

She knew better to say it'd never happen again. But it had also been a long time since the last conversation.

[long_memory]

"I hope so." He would prefer it not to be a problem ever again, but he knew better than to hope for that. "Did he say anything else, or did he just want to know where you were?"

[thatwaslucky]

"Mostly that. He might have tried to get under my skin a little, maybe," she admitted.

[long_memory]

"Did you tell him to fuck off?" He guessed Rey probably didn't use those words exactly but you know what? She should.

[thatwaslucky]

She really should.

"Sort of. I think he was too mad at me already to care."

[long_memory]

Silver sighed. "I really hate this. I know it goes without saying, but still."

[thatwaslucky]

"I know," Rey sighed. "Should I not have said anything?" Maybe then at least it's just be one person frustrated about this right now.

[long_memory]

"No, I want you to tell me these things," he said. "You shouldn't have to deal with this alone. I'm just venting."

[thatwaslucky]

It was still so new to her to hear that she didn't have to do something alone that it did a little something to her heart right then.

"Thank you," she said, moving her arms for more of a hug than anything else.

[long_memory]

Silver wrapped his arms around her. "You don't need to thank me for that."

[thatwaslucky]

"Yes, I do," she said. "You shouldn't have to deal with this either."

[long_memory]

"It's part of the whole dating thing," he said, nuzzling against her neck. "Supporting each other through this sort of stuff."