Ajan Kloss- Tuesday after all that

[thatwaslucky]

Rey didn't even know how long it had been since this all started now. Though she was filthy and bloody- where had that even come from?- Ben had healed her and nothing hurt physically. She wasn't tired from lack of sleep and constant stress anymore. There wasn't even adrenaline that had to wear off. Emotionally though, she felt exhausted.

She had asked for a few minutes to clean up, and after a shower and a change of clothes she had Anakin meet her in her quarters on the Falcon. They needed to have a very important talk, and this was the most private place she had.


[im done spamming you! For the Master.]

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[sith_happened]

"I do not have happy memories there."

[thatwaslucky]

"I definitely got a sense of that." Which was still weird to her. "The whole mission was a series of terrible history lessons."

[sith_happened]

"You could still pick up on us?" Anakin asked.

[thatwaslucky]

"I could. I could still pick up on a lot of things," Rey said, frowning, "I wondered if it was... a relation thing."

[sith_happened]

Anakin made a little face. "Perhaps. Maybe it was your connection with Luke, instead."

[thatwaslucky]

"Maybe. Sometimes I would get flickers of things," she said. "It was stronger when it was connected to him, or my... my parents. But I may have been looking for it more."

[sith_happened]

Anakin nodded. "And then you got more than you were looking for?"

[thatwaslucky]

Rey nodded.

"Overall what I felt on the Death Star was love," she said. "But also Palpatine's rage. I walked the halls of that Sith cathedral and I knew my father's story. The blade... I held the blade that killed my parents."

Which was a pretty horrific thing to have to say, especially knowing she hadn't had context for what she was seeing and feeling at the start, and she didn't really realize how terrible that was to say until her voice cracked on the last word.

[sith_happened]

"I'm so sorry," Anakin said sincerely.

[thatwaslucky]

"It's going to take a while to unpack all that," she admitted.

Since a week ago she thought she'd been sold off and left and now she knew how very not true that was, but still didn't have information like their names.

[sith_happened]

Anakin nodded. "I still get caught by surprise by things from my past," he admitted.

[thatwaslucky]

"Does it get easier?" Rey asked.

[sith_happened]

"Most of the time," Anakin said. "Fandom will sometimes throw a spanner into your progress."

[thatwaslucky]

"Oh. Right." That could potentially be an issue.

[sith_happened]

"You'll come back, though, won't you?" Anakin asked.

[thatwaslucky]

"Yeah," she said, nodding. "I don't know when. I'm not sure what happens now?"

[sith_happened]

"You keep moving," Anakin said with a small smile. "Rebuild."

[thatwaslucky]

"I am not qualified for that," Rey pointed out.

[sith_happened]

"I don't think anyone really else is, either," Anakin said.

[thatwaslucky]

"I mean really," she said. "I have not lived in a real society here at all."

[sith_happened]

"I remember how it used to work, but I can suggest some improvements," Anakin said.

[thatwaslucky]

"It's not where I'm useful," she said, shaking her head. "Whatever I end up doing is elsewhere."

[sith_happened]

"Are you ready to call yourself a Jedi yet?" he asked.

[thatwaslucky]

"Yes," she said simply. It didn't feel strange to say at all.

[sith_happened]

Anakin gave her a small but sincere smile. "I'm glad to hear it."