Ajan Kloss- Tuesday after all that

[thatwaslucky]

Rey didn't even know how long it had been since this all started now. Though she was filthy and bloody- where had that even come from?- Ben had healed her and nothing hurt physically. She wasn't tired from lack of sleep and constant stress anymore. There wasn't even adrenaline that had to wear off. Emotionally though, she felt exhausted.

She had asked for a few minutes to clean up, and after a shower and a change of clothes she had Anakin meet her in her quarters on the Falcon. They needed to have a very important talk, and this was the most private place she had.


[im done spamming you! For the Master.]

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[thatwaslucky]

"No. Or, I don't think so." She took a breath. "He and I were fighting. I was losing. He paused and I stabbed him, and then I realized what he felt and why he paused."

She still felt terrible.

[sith_happened]

Anakin hissed in a pained gasp. "So what happened?" he asked. "To Leia. Do you know?"

[thatwaslucky]

"I'm not sure, exactly. I barely knew her before it, but she got spaced while I was looking for Luke and it sounds like she never fully recovered," Rey said, slowly, because she was trying to get through all this without crying. And mostly failing at it. "Maz said she 'did what needed to be done for her son,' but I don't know what what means."

[sith_happened]

Anakin wasn't exactly holding it together either. "She'd do anything," he murmured with absolute conviction.

[thatwaslucky]

"It seems to have worked," Rey nodded.

[sith_happened]

"Then I'm going to hope she knew that," Anakin said.

[thatwaslucky]

"Me, too," Rey said, wiping at an eye. "When I left I kept thinking that we were all being really final about things, but I really didn't think I was really saying goodbye to her."

It was going to be interesting when she actually sat down to think about essentially losing three parents in one weekend.

[sith_happened]

"Need another hug?" Anakin offered.

Because he could use one.

[thatwaslucky]

She was already on her feet to go to the chair and hug him.

[sith_happened]

Anakin clung back just a little too tightly. "I'm so sorry, Rey."

[thatwaslucky]

"Me too," she said, letting him cling. He had full reason to.

[sith_happened]

It didn't matter at all to him that Rey's Luke and Leia weren't--technically--his. They were all his, and he would mourn them for the rest of his life.

He closed his eyes so Rey couldn't see the tears.

[thatwaslucky]

For a long while she just stayed there. It was just a lot.

"We'll be okay," she said, when she knew she could.

[sith_happened]

"But not today," Anakin said, just in case Rey needed to hear that.

[thatwaslucky]

She choked out a little laugh. "That wouldn't be possible."

[sith_happened]

Anakin patted her back. "Not remotely," he agreed.

[thatwaslucky]

"Are you good right now?" Rey checked.

[sith_happened]

"My daughter's gone," Anakin said quietly. "I'll never be entirely good again."

[thatwaslucky]

"I know. I'm sorry," she said.

[sith_happened]

"I know how much she meant to you, too," Anakin said. "I'm not the only one hurting."

[thatwaslucky]

"You could say that." It wasn't something she'd ever actually voiced, but she'd seen Leia as a mother to her, and while Leia never voiced it either, Rey was pretty sure she'd felt the same way.

[sith_happened]

Anakin kept his hand on her back, sending another little wave of comfort.

[thatwaslucky]

"It will be okay," she told him. "Tomorrow I get to work, and I start helping people. It's what she would do."

What would Leia do had been the big decision-maker for her and Poe for a very long time.

[sith_happened]

"It's not a bad legacy to leave behind," Anakin said quietly. "So. Palpatine. Are you ready to talk about that yet?"

[thatwaslucky]

"It might depend on which part we're talking about," she considered.